내 인생에서 가장 자세히 본 일식. (어쩌면 처음 본 것일지도.)
사진 액자의 유리에 생일초의 그을음을 입혀서 관찰 후 직찍.
일식은 일면식도 없었던 동네 주민들과 짧게나마 이야기할 수 있는 기회를 주었다.
The day started with a huge breakfast tray delivered to my room. Even the dolls on the table are expressing their shock at the amount and elaborate presentation. I certainly enjoyed sampling the various breads, cheeses, cold cut hams, the hot chocolate, and the juice in a sugar rimmed glass, but wasn’t able to finish it.

I took the bus to Hohenschwangau. There I had to frown at an American student complaining after the bus driver didn’t understand her complicated question in English. I had been marveling that the driver had decent English skills. The brief ride took us to the ticket office for castle tours. I bought the ‘royal ticket’, which includes both castles.
Took a brief hike to the parent castle Hohenschwangau to join the 11:15 tour. Each tour lasts thirty minutes and we were not allowed to take any photos inside. The last owner, Luitpold, installed electricity and an elevator in 1905.

Walked back to the office area, where I had a light lunch of curry wurst mit brod, german sausage covered with curried tomato sauce served with bread, a popular street food, in preparation for the longer hike, about forty minutes, to Neuschwanstein.

I didn’t realize such a view existed in real life. Only in fairy tales and picture books of childhood.

The model for Disney castles. The thirty minute tour started at 1:15. The tour guide never smiled. Other observations: rooms were smaller than expected (the French have it totally beat in scale, and besides homes in American suburbs are huge these days), servant quarters were larger than expected but they had to use their own tiny steep passageways, the most unusual room was the grotto, an artificial cave room. Seems very odd now but must have been all the rage with European royalty.


The hike through the woods was pleasant. Other options included shuttle or horse carriage.
Back in town I took a stroll along the river taking in the view of the Bavarian Alps and small water falls.



Stepped into a restaurant where after just two attempts at communicating in German, the waitress reverted to excellent English. I had the regional specialty schweinstaxe (pork roast) served with bread dumpling and cabbage salad. A set menu for €12. In Italy each item had to be purchased separately. So unless you do family style with a group, eating out turned out to be actually cheaper here in Germany.
The last stop was at the mart for batteries and a not-as-intended apple soda, I thought it was juice, with a recycling deposit of €.25.

I returned to the home I was staying and once again couldn’t get the hang of the very simple old key. The lady came out looking exasperated to let me in. I spent the next hour just sitting on the bed in a brain fog.
There was a little culture shock on the night train. The WC was so different from the toilets on Italian trains. Clean with automatic push buttons and locks. Arrived in Munchen at 7 am and got myself a coffee and croissant. During which I couldn’t believe “Si” slipped instead of “Ja”. The shop person looked at me funny but understood anyway. A week in Italy has that effect. Even though I’d taken two years of German classes, I can’t seem to remember much. The train station here has the most expensive WC thus far at €1.10 with personal sinks and vanity. It’s also run with something of a traffic light system: red and green are obvious but the lights also flash red and green at the same time. This occurs after each use and only turns green after the attendant has checked the ‘status’.
Weather was beautiful the whole time in Venice, here, it is cloudy. Perhaps it rained last night. Much cooler too. My only jacket is getting quite dirty as it’s getting much more use than I expected.
I take another train to Fussen where I step out into a rainy town where I can’t see much. I rush into the nearest shop, which happens to be a Chinese restaurant, run, it seems, by people originally from southeast Asia. It’s already early lunch time so I order a meal, kungpao mit reis, hoping I could get some information as well. When I ask about lodging information, surprisingly it seems they have no idea about the area, they do try to hook me up with someone they know who occasionally rents out a room, but to no avail. So with no luck getting any pointers at all I head out into the drizzle.
As I am still on the outskirts of town I head towards where I perceive to be a more central location. I still can’t see too much ahead. Luckily I arrive in front of the tourist office with a moving stones fountain at the front. There they have a whole list of local homes with rooms available. And in no time it is all arranged that I go to one of them. Now armed with a simple map and address I head out to find the house. Now I have enough peace of mind to take in my surroundings and notice five sheep right behind a house with no fence or anything. They look so peaceful even in the rain.
A lady with white hair answers the door. Her English is limited as is my German so we cannot really communicate much. Unlike my home stay in Italy, this lady is extremely business like. I’m led to my little room with the shared bath. The home is immaculately maintained, and I feel slightly suffocated. I’m somehow able to communicate and arrange for laundry service in town through her.
After settling in I head back out to town and start out with some afternoon tea. Rooidos Vanille, not much of a taste but wonderful aroma in a huge cup, probably three times what I would usually drink. I can’t see very far ahead because of the rain but I can see lots of green, plenty of water.

The oddness of a ski jump slope amidst the green.
I see another large stone fountain on my way to see the lakes. It is so simple but beautiful. I’m writing a lot more since the last day in Venice (I had been taking maybe half a page of notes on average but this day I suddenly wrote five pages), but getting lazier about taking photos. After a light dinner of shrimp salad from Nordsee, I head back to my room. I struggle a bit with the old key and finally the lady comes out to help and demonstrates how it is done. There is a sign saying “shower only between 6:30-22:30″. I wait a bit till 6:30 pm to take my shower thinking it a bit odd and too restrictive. Only later I realize that it meant 6:30 am, and was a very reasonable arrangement. I think I’m way too caught up in the elderly lady’s stern image.
Last night thanks to the worst snoring ever, myself and a girl from Quebec formed the instant bond of a fellow sufferer. After almost no sleep we went out together and shared our torment over croissant and cappuccino.
Started the day with mass in the chiera right next to the train station. The church is heavily decorated, reminding me of St. Pietro in Vatican. I thought mass would be all gentle, but maybe it is the Italian blood, the priest was, well, very passionate. I could only guess what his speech might be about. Really all I could get was, Christo, padre, Santa spirit, tre persona, demon possess, hosanna, Gloria, alleluia, amen, benedic.
Afterwards I head to one of my favorite spots in Venice, the steps of a statue in the middle of Campo S. Stefano. There’s even a mandolinist who plays soft beautiful music, the kind you could spend hours with. There’s not many places in Venice where you can sit and rest your legs, probably for the benefit of bars, cafes, and restaurants. This is a rare place where I can sit in the shade for free, other than of course the donation to the musician. I find I quite enjoy being in this very central and public place, having my own time, writing, listening to music, and occasionally people watching. A pretty little German girl attempts conversation with me, but I struggle to find even a few Deutsch words.
The hidden corners of Venice are like jewels, perhaps because nobody tells you about them and they are not in maps. Sometimes they are right next to the bustle of crowds but few notice. Like the place I’ve parked myself now. It is right next to the busy road to the station but blocked away by three road side stands. Only those who look beyond them can find this place with six precious stone benches, little spots of green, even stairs by the waterside with a view of the bridge in front of the station.
Here and there I see ladies drawing. I wondered whether they were tourists or locals, amateurs or professional artists. But whatever the case, it looked like a romantic thing to do.
In the late afternoon I approached a fascinating area with beautiful half circle stairs when a huge dog barked and ran straight towards me. I’m not usually bothered by dogs but this one clearly seemed to be in attack mode against an intruder. It wasn’t on a leash either. The owner did manage to regain control before anything really happened but I was shaken and left the spot soon after. And then… the tears started flowing. I suddenly felt all the troubles of the journey and for an instant wanted to head back home, right away. But then in a second wave of sadness I realize home is somehow not inspiring either. There is no place that I truly miss. It is quite disturbing and I feel guilty towards the people around me too.
With all kinds of analyses of the incident swirling in my head I board the night train to Munchen.
In the spirit of finishing things that I’ve started…
My only whole day in Venice began, typically, without a plan. The whole island is walkable on foot so I let my feet take me wherever it would. I started out in the morning at the fruit market near the hotel, sampling some grapes. I probably saw all the famous sights at least from the outside, but didn’t care to remember the names. I see in my notes that I saw the Accademia for free, but I have no recollection how. Maybe something to do with the Chorus. I also rode the waterbus instead of a gondola. Experienced two different meals, one awful and one great.
I guess the way I carry myself around here makes it look obvious I don’t have money. Although that was somewhat intentional, as I didn’t want to be a conspicuous target when I was traveling all alone, I find there are some downsides to that as well. None of the African boys ask me if I’m interested in the bags they are selling. No one shouts to me for a gondola ride. Even the hotel people don’t ask me if I need a room. Service people at restaurants forget about me for nearly an hour.
One thing Venice does not have? Cars. Not a single car on the island itself. Everyone has boats and there is a car park for use when getting out of Venice.
At our ‘hotel’ room there are five tiny beds, which are not even level. By now I’m not surprised about that much. The surprise came later in the form of a slim little Japanese girl.
누구는 너무나도 바래 누구는 어쩔 줄 몰라해 생각지도 않게 생겨버린 시간
두달은 내리 영화를 보고 게임에 며칠간 빠져도 보고
스무 시간 쯤 잘 수 있나 꿈 속 세계 탐험해 보고
소파에 붙어있기 경쟁을 하고 온 집안의 구조 다 바꿔보고
데굴데굴 방바닥에 구르며 이런저런 몸 개그 작렬하고
가까운 인맥의 온갖 부탁 하나씩 들어주고 밥 한끼 얻어먹고
차 한잔 놓고 몇시간이고 왁자지껄 수다도 떨고
옛 친구들 편지도 쓰고 한달 동안 훌쩍 여행도 떠나
한국 사람 처음 본 사람과 두런두런 대화도 나눠
누구는 너무나도 바래 누구는 어쩔 줄 몰라해 여유를 가지고 몸을 흔들어보아
뭐가 그리도 답답해 웃을 수 있어 너무 좋은데
밖을 내다보아 할 수 있는게 너무나도 많잖아
띵가띵가 띵가띵가 띵가 띵가 띵가띵가
일년동안 낚시를 하고 이곳저곳 등산을 다니고
나무를 나르고 톱질도 하고 못 박고 페인트칠 실컷해 보고
책 백권쯤 읽어보고 상대성 이론 공부해보고
종교 철학 생각도 정립하고 역사 속 인물에 한번쯤 빠져보고
손바닥만한 정원도 가꾸고 준비도 안된 오디션을 보고
콧구멍만한 동네를 탐방하고 가게 주인과 안면을 트고
동네 잔치, 자선 단체 모임 다 한번씩 참여해보고
신춘문예 꿈도 꿔보고 작품 활동 시작해보고
띵가띵가 띵가띵가 띵가 띵가 띵가띵가
흔들렸어 너의 미소에 그냥 흔들렸어
차창에 비친 그대 흔들렸어
아주 작은 관심 속에 흔들렸어 흔들렸어
흔들렸어 너의 말 한마디에 흔들렸어
가까이에 앉은 그대 흔들렸어
마주치는 눈빛 속에 흔들렸어 흔들렸어
이래서는 안되는데 마음 단속 해야는데
눈치채면 어떡할까 시치미 뚝 떼야할까
기쁜데도 아닌 척도 해야하고
슬픈데도 모르는 척 해야하네
반가워도 너무 내색 아니하고
아쉬워도 쿨한 척 해야하네
무리 속에 함께 있음 보지 않아도 널 느낄 수 있어
너도 그런 것만 같은데 확인할 수 없는 우리들 만의 비밀
흔들렸어
물수제비 물결마냥 흔들렸어
나비의 날갯짓 마냥 흔들렸어
밖에서 킨 성냥마냥 흔들렸어 흔들렸어
이번주에는 봄철닷컴 DB를 업그레이드 하려고 합니다.
(작업이 순조롭게 되어서 데이타가 다 날라가는 불상사가 없기를…)
업그레이드 된 하와이 여행기 이야기는 업그레이된 DB로!
There are times when I get sidetracked to a totally new or long forgotten interest. I become quite consumed with it. At least for awhile I act like I just might make a plunge into this totally new field. It may be why neither myself or anyone else around me could make any sense of what I’m supposed to do. I finally realized though, it just may be my way of solving or enduring through an obstacle. Below are three side projects and what I think they are attempting to solve.
1. Gardening and the Initial Creative Process
Gardening, obviously, teaches a lot of patience, and the way new life forms. You may doubt the potential of a seed invisible under ground, but most of the time, with patience and tending, it eventually grows, blooms, and makes fruit. Whatever it was meant to be. At the difficult point in the beginning of a creative process you can’t see where you’re headed. Gardening was at once a distraction and a concrete reminder of the process of making something new.
2. Cooking and Writing
Writing I feel is quite close to cooking. Perhaps that’s why quite a few writers cook or bake. The material for writing: love, hurt, disappointment, the cycle of life, the pursuing of dreams, is shared by most people. Just like the many common food ingredients: meats, vegetables, grains, and herbs. What each person makes of it though, is what makes all the difference. Depending on the ingredient, you could enjoy it raw, or you may go through more and more elaborate cooking processes. (This connects with my previous post!) Elaborate cooking may impress people, but if the ingredient is of exceptionally high quality, the simpler cooking may be the better choice.
3. Painting and Recording
And music recording, especially with today’s technology, I feel, is very close to painting. I suspect that’s why I’m suddenly back into painting. Each different sound is like a different color that you use to create the soundscape. I was stuck and not making progress because I got overwhelmed by all the technicalities. Painting gave me a hands on way of thinking about this. And some possible ideas to overcome the obstacles in getting started and making progress.
I tried to sit down and write with a tiny bit more persistence these days and noticed a new tendency. If I continue to try and write about the same topic I found the style starts to evolve. This doesn’t usually happen in the same setting, it’s when I return to the same topic after some time. The evolution seems to occur in two to three steps.
1. raw (anger, frustration, sadness, even blaming others or the world… this step is skipped if the material is less emotional or some time has passed)
2. direct/ factual
3. poetic/ metaphorical
And who knows? There could be more steps after that.
Anyway, I found the few first attempts at writing a song that I have shared is mostly a product of step 2, some with a trace of step 1 remaining. Although I have the notion that step 3 is more advanced, lyrically beautiful, and rich, I found that some of the songs I really like are in step 2. On the other hand material in step 3 is less embarrassing to reveal to the whole wide world, and when done well can engage the imagination of others for awhile.
This reminded me of a conflicting view I read from other writers. Some writers never finish their song when they are still very close to an emotional experience. Others prefer to finish it when it’s still raw. I realized this ties into this evolution of writing. Where do you decide to stop? Does it all boil down to personal preference ultimately? Or case by case, like the best match between material and style?